Episode 32 – Dark Love


February 10th at the Vanderelli room is the 4th year of Dark Love. An art show that examines some of the most devious and dangerous methods we go through to get what we most desire. A.J. Vanderelli and Tona Pearson, curators and paritcipants in the Dark Love show, talk about the impact this show has had on new artists and how difficult it is to put a price tag on art that has a deep personal connection to the artist.

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My Valentine

D V-Day is tomorrow. Are you ready guys? Got the reservations? What about the card? You better write her a card you fuck face. Take the Hallmark card you bought and wipe your ass with it because if you can’t hand write her a two page letter then you truly don’t deserve whatever happiness and love you’ll be feeling tomorrow.

I imagine a lot of comedians or bloggers will be talking about tomorrow as well trying to talk it up or talk it down and quite honestly it’s disgusting to see how easily people are willing to bash it or make it the biggest deal in the world. Let’s take a breath and calm down before we start declaring war on Valentines day. Go ahead, take a breath, the paragraph below this one will wait.

Okay, so for all you couples out there who are really excited for tomorrow, I congratulate you on the fact that you have a successful relationship and are therefore “qualified” to enjoy the day. You may want to post about it on your Facebook tomorrow, as well you should, don’t let anyone make you feel bad about expressing that. Fuck the single people who can’t handle the fact that life is actually working out for you. However I will say that if you truly love the person you’ll spend less time on the social media and more time holding hands and running through a field of daisies. Keep the big status update as an after thought just so other people can know that you’re in a good place, seriously the day is about your happiness not about letting people know you’re happy.

Single people, you may be spending tomorrow brooding and/or getting drunk alone. If you plan to post statuses about that then you’re no better than the couples who post too much on Valentines day. You’re just looking for attention, which is understandable because you’re single on a day when somebody should be taking the time to love you more. Look if you’re truly depressed about tomorrow then I suggest doing something that’ll take up all your time like playing a video game, reading a book (non-romance, and I suggest reading the Thurber Carnival), do a Netflix marathon, or as they say on Parks & Recreation: “Treat yo self!” To some delicious food. Don’t think you have to punish yourself or the world because things didn’t work out this year. There’s someone out there who does love you, and I don’t mean your ex leave her/him alone, it’s your friends and your family those connections you have with them are just as valid as a married couple’s. Wish your friend’s who are in relationships a happy valentines day and tell them you love them instead of making a desperate cry for help on Facebook and play it off as a joke. If you’re truly sad and need to share it call someone and they’ll make you feel better because that’s what friends/family is for. Besides you don’t see people without parents bash other people on Mother’s or Father’s day, so take it easy.

This is the first time in a couple of years that I’m single on Valentines day. I wrote all of this above kind of for you guys, but really for me. I want tomorrow to be good and not make my friends feel bad for celebrating a day that they deserve to enjoy. Am I happy that I’m single? I’m okay with it. You should be too. Don’t cause any drama, let’s try to go through with this without incident and then before you know it it’ll be over

Have fun tomorrow everyone and be safe! Love, Brian.

Losing Robin Williams

There is not enough space for me to grieve while stuck on a family road trip through New Jersey, however even if I was alone inside my bedroom back home in Columbus I would still feel like this is a terrible time for Robin Williams to have died. It’s terrible when anyone dies, but he was only 63, which is barely old enough to retire. It also gave me chills to read the first report on my phone, “Oscar winning comedian Robin Williams dies at 63” because I just celebrated my Dad’s 63rd birthday last week.

I’ve been watching the internet attentively these past few hours and I’ve been touched by the hundreds of different posts I’ve seen about Robin Williams. It’s nice seeing that the general consensus is that he is a great person that deserves to RIP

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Many people have made the subjects of their tweets about how Robin has touched their lives. I wasn’t aware of Robin Williams until I started listening to stand-up comedy in 2010 and downloaded his 2008 special “Weapons of Self Destruction” after that I became very absorbed in all the acting roles he did, unfortunately I haven’t watched them all so I feel out of place saying anything more than that he is a really talented actor. His stand-up though was a style that’s unique to him and only him. He was one of the few comics I imitated (badly) when I was first starting out and made me realize that I’m going to have to be the comedian I’m meant to be instead of a comedian that I want to be. I’m not ashamed to admit it though because Robin was like the Superman of stand-up comedy and I’m sure I’m not the only comedian who tried dressing up like him for an open-mic.


As I type this while tears stream down my face in the lobby of the Comfort Inn I’m staying at, I feel so overjoyed to see how people are processing their grief online by posting happy memories and pictures of Robin’s vast career.

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Although I’m a tad concerned about how his cause of death, suicide, could rock any of the social media boats over. Suicide and depression are touchy topics that don’t have clear answers.


Everyone’s method of coping with both of those things is their own battle that they must face, unfortunately but truthfully, alone. How we, the concerned loved ones, handle the winning or losing battle is also unclear, but really whether I am a friend, family member, or lover I can only be a special force that comes when called for, no sooner. That is my answer though, such as it is, your answer is completely different I’m sure but the point isn’t that we should try to find one real answer about a topic that is unanswerable. The only way we should move forward is to keep fighting our battles the best way we can and to only help and guide others where help is needed. So I ask the world that we do not make Robin Williams a symbol for suicide prevention because in the end it will only hurt his loved ones by making them feel his death was preventable, which it probably wasn’t otherwise he’d still be here, and it’ll distract us from what really matters: the gifts and words Robin left behind. Appreciating his hard work is a healthier way to mourn than to trick ourselves into thinking that we can always stop our loved ones from killing themselves. Luckily Robin Williams had a long career filled of specials, movies, and interviews that we can enjoy forever.




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So as we grieve and try to live on with Robin’s words in our hearts let’s avoid conflict, sit back, and laugh together as we watch the Superman of comedy take the screen. Robin Lives In Me!

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I’m (not) Thinking About Quitting Comedy

Something I keep seeing over the past couple years that’s been bothering me:

Every few months I see a couple of comedians making a vague status about how they want to ‘quit’ comedy. Usually it’s for reasons like job, family, money, or skill level and honestly thinking about quitting for any one of those reasons is perfectly fine. I’ve questioned myself for all those issues at least once. So if you’re seriously thinking about it then I feel ya, but I think 95% of comics who make a Facebook post about it are just fishing for compliments. Nothing wrong with wanting to hear positive or negative feedback for doing this. Comedy is a subjective profession and the opinions of others are very important in how we approach this craft, for instance I like to ask the same two or three people that I trust if I did well after every show because I am very insecure about how well I do. However I find it kind of gross to hyperbolize you quitting your comedy career every few months just to get everyone to tell you that you shouldn’t. It’s taking advantage of people who support and love you, again it’s okay just to straight up ask people how you did because then you’re being honest with them and they’ll give you an honest and accurate answer as opposed doing everything it takes to keep you from quitting something they enjoy seeing you do.

Plus I feel like that quitting comedy is a very intimate decision that should be consulted directly with close friends who know you well, not launched into the open subjected to judgement of people who may not know you. It’s your choice on how you handle the personal decision of continuing comedy but manipulating people every three months to fish out compliments is wrong and makes you look thin skinned.